Black

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I'd like to dream in vermillion and fuschia
Paint rhythms in my mind, grow warmer to the waves
But these hands, they can tear the most fragile creations
Even though it may not seem so.

I'd like to ruminate over the tendrils of time
Bit by bit, all of it's intricate meshes
But this soul, it takes pride in blissful ignorance
Even when the heart says no.

Sometimes I dream with my eyelids
Sometimes, I don't have the right track
Except for occasional bursts of vermillion and fuschia
Always I dream in black. 

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